Can you Love?

Always followed the word with a notion given to me by the only television, right from my childhood.

As Indians grow up they don't really bother themselves with this little word. We have serious things to look at like world peace, right? So, the information we keep accumulating is radiated from the television and the surrounding anti-social elements. You know things like in movies, dancing in rain and eating few kasams and all.. and whacking the villain's rear assets to name a few. Neighborhood information constitutes of talks like - see that girl/boy? ; i love him/her (long before you know what's love) and likes. I never remembered if any of such things ever happened to me in early childhood days or did I get and clumsy/complex feelings. But, there was something and it was forbidden in the place where I grew up.

Thanks to the society, the children were supposed to follow a normal routine daily, a pre-defined one. I never thought of things I think now. Wish something never changed. Anyways, so it is more like non-expressing and shy. When you don't know what to say you never speak up or you end up saying something absolutely irrelevant. I didn't want to be in the later so i just keep numb.

With passing days and my learning self I explored more and transformed myself.
I was overwhelmed with the things I found and thought of what not. I know that emotions played a major role in one's life. I tried to gain control over them. I had to create situations for blurting out each emotion. I started playing around. Anger, cheerful, sad, frown, stress, etc.

Then someday I thought of 'the word'. I was, then, recently told that this is the only thing that exist and you should be grateful to it. I went through a major transformation. I started to think over it. The whole logic thing go for a toss. You cannot think rational. It can destroy you, mishandled. I gotta tell you, but, this thing got enormous power. You might get carried away. Soon you tend to realize that it is fading, it always does. Love is like that only.

Being in love can do wonders for one. The keyword is love and not loving someone, if you may take notice. Loving someone is just a small part of the entire thing. The way to use this is to start form love and end up in loving someone. Loving someone might not actually end up in love. When I started tapping keys on my keyboard, I thought it can be described and now I am falling short of words. I know it can be defined in infinite possible ways and yet it cannot be confined to a single word but 'Love'.

It controls every other emotion of yours. Someday, when you are kinda disturbed, you know, emotionally you cannot just be normal in your behavior. You cannot love. The next time somethings go haywire ask yourself- Can you love? If you can things would be great. You can always learn it. right?

Just remember it is way too big word for defining even the relationship between Souls and yet so simple as to wake up everyday and smile.

Love is like the intoxicating drug for the mind and key to heart.

On a lighter note:

If anyone has trouble finding the key to my heart, I keep an extra set under my kidney stones.

Who Am I?

The quest to find oneself is a never ending one, I guess. Almost 99 percent  of people ont he planet everyday thinks of the same question. Who am I? And then they try to answer this question with their profound logics and beliefs. " I am what I am", "I am cool, I a hot. I am everything you are not." and what-not. Yours truly also sometime thinks of this question and comes out with a different answer every time (kinda improvising). Earlier I was with the no stereotype attitude. Then I picked up the unique/different tag. This time when this question hit me I sat down to some serious thinking. The analysis took the bottom-up/ top-down/ lateral/ any other/etc. approach to get to the base of this question. And then I started seeing myself with everybody else's eyes. Bingo!

I am a different person now. Every changing second. Let me give you an example. People generally end up saying that I am very comfortable with him/her. I can be me with them. And I think, what are you at times when you are not you? Someone else? I don't know. I cannot think of anyone else whose role I might be playing when I am not me. I ought to be me. But not as I know me, as you know me. Getting the point?

It's people or the surrounding what makes you different everytime. When we are with comfortable with people/situations of our choice we say we are being ourselves. But as they turn adverse we deny to own our character.

I think I am what you think I am.

When you thought I am a friend, I was.
When you thought I am happy, I became.
When you said I am no good, I worsen.
When you said I am the best, I was better.

I was quite when you wanted me to.
I was there when you needed a support.
I left when you thought I would.
I came back just when you thought I should.

All I am saying is whatever you were expecting from me consciously/sub-consciously I was turning in to one. If you think this is not the case with anyone else. It's time for a reality check. No matter what you do, people will always think what they want to think. But, its only the half way through. Coz

You will only know what I wanted to show.

Will explore that aspect in the next blog.. :P

All that Matters!!

El Quote 

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character." Albert Einstein 

Everybody says that Attitude is all that matters. Build a positive attitude and you will be successful and happy. But, you keep wondering, how. And that is the most important thing. You need to choose your attitude. Shape it well to reach great self realization. 

Everyday you have a choice to be positive or negative. You choose to be negative and you get a bad day. May be it keeps you happy. But at the end of the day you lost one day with a negative attitude. That one day hardly matters in your really long life. On the other hand you keep positive attitude and see the difference. No matter what happens be positive. Try this exercise for a day/week/month/life long and you find the difference. It does not take courage to be positive. It is a simple task and everyone can do it.

Once I started with a really bad day. Series of mis-fortunate events started from the early hours till night. But somehow I was very happy that day and after every mis-fortune I told to myself this is the last. And soon the day was finished and I found the whole day was miserable but I didn't lose my cool and I was unaffected by any of the events. In a moment I realized the power of positive attitude.

It's time for you to try it now! There is never a wrong time to do a good thing. Do it now.

Right time to Break-Free?

The other day, I was thinking of one of my college mates. He was a shy guy from a small town. Always been bullied by everyone else. You can relate him to a typical character form any movie in which there is a college-going-students' group and one that is bullied. And then I remember that particular guy got out of college and went for job and lo! - look at him now. He is all smart and out-going. Knows how to talk and behave. You know what i mean. Now this guy is not like before. You cannot bully him. And you cannot accept him as he has become. But, he has made his life more easy. Only now you will like him less. But he has gained a respect among his new acquaintances.

So, whatever change he underwent was for his own good. But the society around him wasn't ready to accept those changes. He broke his threshold and transformed. And this happens to all of us sometime. You feel this when you meet some of the old folks after 3-4 long years and you have this deep wrenching feeling inside your stomach about that guy. Your feelings have changed for that someone and so is his/her's. Obviously the intensity of disliking each other is directly proportional to the index of transformation.

Just thinking of breaking free!!
Are you ready?